My Story

We Can Do Anything You Do

Picture Credits : Yeashu Yuvraj 

School life was a nightmare for me. I was an introvert, passively bullied & ostracised by the rest. I would often eat my tiffin in the washroom & often find myself hiding in corners. There are still nights I wake up dreaming of being trapped there. Being slut shamed & body shamed from the age of 11 or 12, which sadly a lot of young girls go through. This was the on-set of my anxiety, I feel. Never being good enough, not fitting-in, being too shy, being too vocal, too emotive, too loud, too big, too moody and too much of everything. 

At 21, being one of the top students in my batch, got a job at a renowned Advertising Agency. The excitement soon turned into fighting inner battles, my complexes & insecurities heightened, I began caving in at a tremendous pace. I was dealing with severe anxiety & depression. I couldn’t sustain the job & quit within a few weeks. Soon had no money & bills were piling up, food became an issue & I went into complete isolation - on days when there’d be no food, especially through the brutal Delhi Summer, I would chug up to 10 litres of water & munch of ParleG biscuits. To get myself out of the financial mess & to over compensate for the reclusive person I had become, I worked 18hrs a day, only to end up needing surgery of my right wrist. My bone had crushed & turned into powder due to overwork & repeated injury, my right hand wasn’t to regain range of motion for the rest of my life. Not having a table & chair I would sit on the floor to work, I was soon told by the doctor to restrict knee movement. Mental illness plus a financial crisis are a terrible spot to be in. I sunk in further.

Picture Credits : Yeashu Yuvraj 

2018 - The silver lining to this dark phase & ergophobia - I currently run two successful ventures. I began long distance running, got back to painting with a hand that has 30% range of motion, most importantly, I befriended myself, have conversations with myself, a better understanding of what’s going on within me internally. I am unapologetic when it comes to loving and taking care of me. I quite like this version of me. 


#wecandoanythingyoudo  Thank you for covering my story, and making me feel comfortable enough to finally let go off something I have held so tightly onto all these years.

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Picture Credits : Yeashu Yuvraj  |  WeCanDoAnythingYouDo